I just want to cry. Why does everything have to be so hard that you don’t know how to survive it?
I just wanted to call and say I love you… But I can’t.
I just wanted to run into your arms and never let go… But I can’t.
I just needed to hear you’re voice… But I can’t.
I just wanted you to kiss me and tell me it’s okay… But you can’t.
I just wanted to be held in your arms… But you can’t.
I just wanted to drive to your house and suprise you… But I can’t.
I just wanted to be able to run out of here when I was eighteen… But I can’t.
I just wanted to be happy with you… But I can’t.
I just wanted to be proud of our relationship… But I can’t.
Parents don’t realize what they take away when I make a mistake. Punishing me for being happy when all but them gave me support just makes me want to do it more. Grounding? Fine. Phone taken away? Fine. Telling me you don’t like him? Not okay because they wouldn’t see me if it wasn’t for him. Saying I don’t know humility, humbleness and respect? A lie, just because you don’t think I give you what you deserve doesn’t mean I don’t know them. It means you never earned them. He makes me happy, he is healither for me than all of them combined. Yet you disapprove of him because he’s not your idea perfect? Way to cause more pain than harm. Maybe there’s a reason I’m graduating early beyond a job. Maybe it has to do with my friends (without even my knowledge) decided that if it got worse here that they were taking me out. They see it; the pain, the depression, the anxeity you cause. You know it’s bad if they want me out of here and I never had to say a word. You try to force me closer but all you do is cause pain and push me farther. Way to hear me out…